I Saw A Star

por Alison Calderón-López

It was a star.

Only I didn’t know that because I can’t see stars.

“No mas los intelligentes pueden ver las estrellas. Los puedes ver?”

No I can’t see them. 

I am dumb. I cant see stars yet. Just like how I couldn’t see through all those convincing lies you’ve told me. It was truly amazing to see how it all played out. I don’t know you, but you’ve really outdone yourself with the performance you put out. The time and energy I have wasted is the one thing I’ll never be able to get back. Not to mention my sanity. The most incredible thing I have observed is that I’ve written so many things about you, but yet I still find myself writing more. You haven’t thought about me once. I know that. It irks me to believe that you don’t care. You never did. Although I want to hate you, I can’t. But I don’t like you either. I guess you could say it’s in between and you can say that because that’s what it is. “In between”. All this goes to prove that I am dumb. I am coming to a conclusion. I was tricked. You made me realize that I am not in fact dumb. Because If I were stupid, I wouldn’t be sitting here writing about this. If I were dumb, I would be texting, probably be begging for an answer on why you did this to me. If I were dumb, I would have gone to see you again. But the one thing that made me realize that I wasn’t stupid was when that night I looked up into the sky, and I didn’t see any satellites or planes. I remember now, I saw a star.